“I think it’s intoxicating when somebody is so unapologetically who they are.”Don Cheadle (via the-healing-nest)
"I would NEVER have guessed you had anxiety and depression issues ! You’re always so confident and everything !”
“You don’t need another human being to make your life complete, but let’s be honest. Having your wounds kissed by someone who doesn’t see them as disasters in your soul but cracks to put their love into is the most calming thing in this world.”Unknown (via felicefawn)
“I like my coffee how I like myself: Dark, bitter, and too hot for you.”
“There lacks a filter
Daily Haiku on Love by Tyler Knott Gregson (via 69honeybeez1)
between my heart and my hands,
I love in touches.”
“There are times in your life when, despite the steel weight of your memories and the sadness that seems to lie at your feet like a shadow, you suddenly and strangely feel perfectly okay.”Kevin Brockmeier (via thingsthatverbme)
for a blog named grokkery (in honor of the word grok, and about my own personal journey and all that) i don’t really post about the origins of this word or the author who coined it. hrmm..
when i am depressed i don’t just feel empty- i feel like i am seeing the truth. i feel like emptiness is my nature. like i’ve woken up from a dream about being better. like everything i said when i felt okay was all filtered through a layer of bullshit. it’s not self-doubt. it’s self-awareness. it’s the realization that i am false. it’s feeling laughed at, not with. it’s seeing my head for the random jumble of nonsense that it is. it’s three days after i’ve vowed to keep my room clean and now there are clothes and plates and water bottles scattered everywhere. i’m lost.
of course, when i feel okay, i am convinced that the opposite of all that is the truth.
so who’s to say.
“When I’m manic, I’m so awake and alert, that my eyelashes fluttering on the pillow sound like thunder.”Electroboy: A Memoir of Mania by Andy Behrman
A friend once told me, "i am better than i think i am and not as good as i’d like to be" about themselves. These words are full of goodness.
I just have to remember this.
“There is nothing wrong with wanting attention. It doesn’t make you selfish. It doesn’t make you desperate or pathetic or weak. It makes you human. We all want to be noticed. We all need to feel seen and heard and valued. And we all deserve to have those needs met. You are no exception. You deserve to take up space. You deserve to be acknowledged and loved and cared for. You deserve to shine. Don’t let anyone, including yourself, convince you otherwise.”
Daniell Koepke (via yourwordsplease)
The most powerful sentence “You deserve to take up space”. Knocked the wind out of me.
“I am explain. I did not have the word. You grok. Anne groks. I grok. The grass under my feet groks in happy beauty. But I needed the word. The word is God.”
“‘Thou art God,’ Mike repeated serenely. ‘That which groks. Anne is God. I am God. The happy grasses are God. Jill groks in beauty always. Jill is God’”
- Valentine Michael Smith, the Man from Mars
“Self-discipline is necessary, but so is playfulness, flexibility, joy. When you stop demanding perfection of yourself, your writing desk will become a spacious place. Slipperiness is good. Sloppiness is OK. Cultivate patience with your own uncertainty and doubt; a tolerance for bad writing; a willingness to let a story develop embryonically.”
way wise. not easy, but true.
if you’ve never been in a physically
do not tell people
how easy it is
to walk away
I cannot even tell you how many times I woke up from nightmares that I never escaped, feeling just as trapped as I did before I got out, even more than a year later. I still go to a dark place remembering, sometimes.
When I get comfortable with people I start using them as pillows and foot rests
when i get used as a pillow or foot rest i feel loved